29 Jun 2006

Felt the need to stop

G: hey
G: Kerala photos alleh ?
J: tripunithura visit
G: email chaidal madi. to g--j--4u
J: ok
J: nee annu kulukkiyo?
G: illa
J: production issue-il pettu poyo?
G: illa. mind control ayirnu
G: angane chaidal matram-eh idil ninu vittu maran pattu
J: pinne yenthaanu nee annu ninte sister-inte explain cheiythathu?
G: because u wanted to know ..now i have told u that and its over
J: oh ok
G: ini vere katha onnum parayan illa adu kondu hopefully this will be over
J: ippol ee photos ayakkunnathil vere prashnam onnum pinneedu undaavillallo, alle?
G: yendu prashnam? idu yende Amma yude padam alleh ..adil prashnam yenda?
J: alla... njaan aa manassu vachu padam yeduthu yennu ninnodu paranjathu kondu
G: adokke saram illa. nammal ini idu discuss chayandu irinal madi, it will slowly fade out
J: njaan yethaayaalum 5 pics send cheiyunnu. vere onnum discuss cheiyunnilla
G: ok
J: thalkkaalam ingane ulla kaariyangal yenthudenkilum manassil irunnaal mathi
G: discuss chaidilengil manasil ninu paduke fade ayikolum
J: depends on individuals
G: thats true.
J: ninte sister-inte kaariyam valuthaayi manassil illa. so will fade. only that pose u told got into my head
G: njaan karanam annu nindeh manasil ee kariyangal vanadu.. ipol njaan tanneh idu stop chaidal.. it will fade off slowly but if i continue it then it will just grow stronger
J: njaan "nee kaaranam" yennonnum parayilla
G: nee paranjila ..pakshe adu anu satyam
G: potteh, ini adu paranjatu kariyam illa. this has to stop ..I cannot live with this guilt so I am ending it here
G: njaan poku annu.
G: nalleh working from home annu .
J: ok. u may check email today or tomorrow
G: ok bye

25 Jun 2006

G avante ammaye kaanuvaanum padam yedukkuvaanum paranju

J: nee ninte ammaye vilicho?
G: avar natil annu ipol
J: oh ok
J: njaan poyi kandotte?
G: no problem
J: deshyam thonnaruthu
G: illa angane onnum ila
G: veetil phone chaidal avar direction tarum
J: tripunithura number aano?
G: athe
J: will call tomorrow. camera yeduthotte?
G: yedutho
J: will share pics I take
G: ok
J: ninte ammaye kurichu orkumbol yenikku nalla kambi thonnum. nee ninte ammayude kaariyam open aayi paranjathu kondaayirikkum
G: athe adu shariya
J: vere oru aal ninte ammaye kurichu angane paranjaal rasam thonnilla
J: that is the uniqueness
J: ninakkum angane thonniyittille?
G: athe . njaan parajadu kondu oru vere thrill annu
J: aduthengaanum athokke orthu nee kulukkiyo?
G: illa. karanam start chaidal pinneh angane orthu yennum kullkan tonum
J: athrakku oru dominating subject aanu ninte amma nammude manassil - shariyalle?
G: athe
J: ninte achhanum ivide vannittille?
G: uvu
J: cool. appol casual aayi kurachu photos yeduthotte?
G: yedutho . adinu kuzapam illa
J: ivide aakumbo normal pics aayirikkum
J: because varunnathinu munbu phone cheiyunnathu kondu
G: athe allengilum angane vere pictures idukan veshamam annu
G: avideh Amavanu sukam illa adu kondu that might not be possible
J: oh ok. u should have told earlier about them being here
G: they just go there about 2 weeks ago
J: shoot ... u should have told
G: its ok u can stil go and see them
J: yeda, i am leaving tomorrow (28th). Now it is 00:30 am on 27th
J: but i will give a call at this number
G: oh
J: and will see whether there is a chance to meet
J: because after our open talks about her in detail, i long to see her
J: hope u feel nice to think about me seeing her.
G: i told you its ok
J: njaan naale nee thanna number-il vilikkunnathe ullu.
J: ammayude peru yenthaanu? ariyilla
J: in case someone attends..
G: Saraswa...
G: yede. i am fine with u going and meeting her
G: its ok
J: venda... ninte manassu yenickku arinju koode. pinneedu nee palathum okke vichaarikkum.
J: njaan theerchayaayum vilikkaam
G: i am telling u its ok
J: nokkatte. will certainly call
J: njaan ivide aanu yennu ninte ammacku ariyumo?
G: if u have time u should go and see them
G: ariyam ..
J: oh ok
J: then it is easier to talk and update matters over phone
G: yes
G: saturday oru barbaque undayirnu . Moni-yude moleh kandu undi pongi kulluki
J: in what dress?
G: dress ayiurnilla. oru knee length tight jeans ayirnu ..but her crossed legs excited me
J: avale close aayi thottuvo?
G: illa . aduthu ninu kure neram samsarichu
J: what about other one?
G: she was also there. avaludeh aduthu ninu kure neram avalodu samsarichu ninu
J: she too is good
J: aval vannam vacho?
G: yes
G: illa
G: same as before
J: was she in shots?
G: no ..unfortunately not
J: avalude kundi nakkuvaan nallathu aanu
J: nalla urundathu aanu
G: athe. she is a little naughty type ..if i was living closer i would have tried something
J: njaan avalude kundi ninte veettile staircase-il climb cheiyumbol nokki rasichittundu
J: wish she is more younger
J: njaan ninte ammaye phone cheiyuka aanenkil ninne update cheiyaam
J: rest nothing
G: ok no problem
J: bye
G: if u are going to meet them. watch grandmother's cleavage if u get a chance
G: ok
J: she is also there?
G: yes
J: getting both to see - which is ur choice?
G: Amma is younger so she is better
J: ammummaye kalikkunnathu nee orthittundo?
G: cleavage indeh idakyu undi vachu adikyanadu orthitundu
J: shariyaanu. amma young aayathu kondu kooduthal nannaayi thonnum
J: recent aayi orthittundo ammummaye?
G: illa . kure naal ayi orthatu
J: indirect aayi chance kittiyaal yedukkaam kure photos
G: athe . chance kitiyal idutho
J: ninte ammayudeyum yedukkaam... by making sure she is feeling so fine with me taking her pics
J: chance undenkil ninte ammayude cleavage yeduthotte?
G: idutho ..chance kitiyal.
G: kitchen ill joli chiyunadu kitiyal ..saree poki kaal kaanan patum
J: amma avide kitchen-il pani cheiyumo?
G: uvu..amma annu yellam chiyunadu
J: gown ittu aano avide?
G: illa . saree annu
G: gown ratri annu
J: kothi aakunnundo aa thuda kaanuvaan ippol?
J: ippol naattil aayathu kondu aarum illallo disturb cheiyuvaan
J: nee pandu amma kalikkunnathu kandathu pole ippol raatri gown ittu pokki vachu mukalil kayaruka aakum
G: athe possible
J: they could have tried all these if they were more young
J: ninte amma ippozhum kali kittuvaan kothi ulla type aanennu ninakku manassil thonnaarundo?
G: ipol vayasu kure ayi ..onnum parayan patula
J: pakshe thadavi kodukkunnathu rasikkum
G: possible
J: yeda, do not rule out 60 as "vayassu aayi"
G: yes thats true
J: it is the inner feeling and chemistry with the other
J: if chemistry is good, even a 15 yr old boy can feel a 60 yr old woman so erotic
J: vayassu aayathu kondu ninakku ninte amma oru charakku alla yennu manassil thonnumo?
G: athe
J: u think she is no more erotic because she is aged?
G: i cant say that ..i meet her once in 2 yrs .
G: pakshe last time sofail irinu cleavage kandu kambi ayi for sure
J: but knowing you so well in the best personal way, i can tell u this much... of all woman in this world, ur first choice is always ur amma for
everything among all
J: and that is understandable... it is all chemistry
J: shariyalle? does age play a role here?
G: no thats not true. i thought of her because i saw her in those poses . Uma is the one who i could have had dirty sex with
G: because she really turned me on
J: yeda, i did not say dirty sex
G: i meant
G: chemistry
G: with Amma there is no such chemistry
J: i was telling about lasting relation ... where sex is playing only 40-50% role
G: its just what i think abt her that exists ..nothing else
J: ninte ammaye ninakku kalikkunnathinekkaal ninte amma ninne thodunnathu okke aanu ninne rasippikkuka
J: sharikkum ulla kaliyekkaal ninakku athu aanu ishtapeduka
J: shariyalle?
G: shariya
J: ninakku ninte ammayude thuni illaathe ulla shareeravum ninte amma ninne seduce cheiythu feel cheiyunnathum aanu ninakku ishtam
J: nee ninte ammaye kalikkunathu ninakku ishtapedum aayirunnene. pakshe amma aayathu kondu ninakku ninte undi ninte ammayude poor-il kadathuvaan
manassil thonnunnilla. shariyalle?
G: yes possible
J: athu kondu aayirikkanam nammal valare thurannu samsaarichathinu sesham ninakku ninte ammaye njaan kalikkunnathil manassil athra vishamam
thonnaathirunnathum, pakshe ninte ammaye kalikkunnathu watch cheiyuvaan ninakku manassil thonniyathum.... yeda.... deep inside u know the relation
u have with her
J: agree?
G: god knows what i feel .
J: ninakkum idakku thonnaarundo ninte ammaye kalikkuvaan?
G: illa . njaan angane namal pandu discuss chaidapol alogichatundu , but not now
J: pandu nee ninte ammaye nee kalikkunnathu aalochittundo?
G: angane try chaidatundu but i end up watching
J: watching means ... njaan ninte ammaye kalikkunathu watching cheiyunnatho?
G: athe
J: yenthaayirunnu mental blcok?
J: thuni onnum idaathe ulla ninte ammaye manassil orkuvaan aano?
G: tuni onnum illadeh njaan orthatilla . semi nude annu always. i dont know ...angane njaan orthatila
G: brb. njaan onnu mulli veram
J: nee ninte ammaye seduce cheiythu kalikkunnathu manassil orkuvaan prayaasam aanu. due to chemistry. pakshe ninte amma ninne seduce cheiyunathu
orkuvaan alpam easy aayirikkum
G: back
J: njaan nerathe paranjathu shariyalle?
G: athe. shariyanu . thats what i told you too the time when i saw her cleavage and masturbated
J: neeyum ninte ammayum maathram ullappol ninte amma ninte palayidathum thodumbol ninte ammayude kannukal nokkumbol alle ninakku kooduthal kambi
thonnunnathu?
G: athe
J: pakshe njaanum ninte ammayum koodi cheiyumbol njaan ninte ammaye palathum cheiythu enjoy cheiyunnathu alle ninakku kaanuvaan ishtam?
G: athe
J: yeda, ithu natural aanu. njaan ninte ammayil kure kambi rasam thonnunnathum kothikkunnathum ninte ammayude kundi thula nakkuvaan
kothikkunnathum okke ninnil koodi aanu. athaanu sathyam
G: yeda iduokke natural alla..some perverted feelings annu
J: do u like such feelings?
G: it is very erotic for sure but there is a lot of guilt attached to it
J: yenickku ninte ammaye kure kalikkuvaan moham varunnathu, nee njaan ninte ammaye kalikkuvaan pokunnu yennu ariyunnu yennathil aanu
J: nammal samsaarichathinu sesham manassil ulla thonnalukalil koodi ninte amma valare young aayitte yente manassil thonnarullu
J: ippozhum ee lokathil ninakku yettavum kalikkuvaan kothiyulla first 10 aalukalil ninte amma ninte manassil undaakille?
G: illa
G: adu oru different setup annu
J: ariyaam
J: njaan tripunithura poyi ninte ammayude pala pose-il revealing pics yedukkunnathu orkuvaan ishtam undo?
G: athe
J: tell me honestly. shariyaano?
G: yes i like that
J: ninte amma oru vedi type aayi kaanunnathu ishtam aano?
G: athe
J: ninte ammaye oru vedi pole treat cheiythu ninte ammaye spank cheiyumbol ninte ammayude moaning kelkkuvaan ishtam aano?
G: uvu
J: njaan ninte ammaye theri paranju kalikkunnatho?
J: excited aayo?
G: athe
J: u like me treating her dirty on bed?
G: cant say . i havent thought abt it like that
J: u like me dealing with her rough?
J: dominating?
G: yes maybe
J: njaan ninte ammaye kurichu ippol theri paranju excited aayikotte?
G: nee undi purathu ittu tirumu annoh ?
J: atheda... sathyam
J: yenikku ninte ammayude pooril onnu kayatti adikkanam
J: avale niruthi avalude kaal vidarthi vachu aa kanthil valichu chappanam
J: ninte ammayude kanthu chappi njaan kudikkunnathu ninakku kaanande?
G: yes sure
J: ninte amma yennum yente sneha vedi aayi treat cheiytholaam